2 Years Ago Today…

By The Social Frog, on June 7th, 2010

Two years ago today I quit smoking. I can’t even describe how good it feels to be able to say that and to be at this point. I am sure there are those out there who will laugh and make light of it, which is fine but if you have EVER tried to quit smoking, you will know how hard it is.

I tried quitting before this last time and it only lasted for a month at the longest and I believe it was due to having a tooth extracted and I was scared to death about getting a dry socket, but I did not stay quit. I was not ready but that was the longest till now.

I don’t k now why 2 years ago was finally my time, my “it”. I remember sitting outside smoking and I told myself enough was enough. I don’t need them, they don’t help anything and they sure as hell do not fix anything. It’s a mind game.

I started thinking about my and hubby’s upcoming wedding anniversary which is on the 9th and I thought about wanting to be around for a long, long time with hubby and for our future children. Something clicked. I put the cigarette out and ran to Quitnet.com.

2 years. I remember going through the support forums over the first few days of my quit and seeing all the people celebrating their quit anniversaries and I imagined what it would be like to celebrate 1 year and I got a little discouraged thinking it would or could never be me, that I was not personally strong enough after smoking for almost 12 years.

It was a huge part of my life, life with hubby. Every place reminded me cigarettes from our porch to the car, I was afraid of going out to drink for a while. I guess I did not give myself enough credit and today I celebrate my strength and my commitment to myself.

I still have the occasion weak moment, but I can pull myself out of it and remind myself where I want to be and that nothing is worth loosing my quit for. This weekend was a little hard oddly. We went out to a club and I did not realize smoking was still allowed inside, but it was. I did have a moment of weakness in my thoughts, but I was able to tell myself that I could drink, dance and have fun without cigarettes and that was that.

It has not been easy but it also has not been as difficult as I had imagined it might be. I feel so much better than I used to, my breathing has changed for the better since I quit as well, I honestly can not think of one negative thing about quitting. Your mind is what you have to get past and it’s not always easy. Quitnet is a wonderful place for information, support and to help keep you in check. I used that place all the time for like the first 6-8 months, now I go there occasionally to see who is celebrating an anniversary.

I thank anyone who has been there for me and has encouraged me to keep my quit along my journey. I look forward to putting another year behind me and I know it will always be a distant part of me but one I will always have to deal with but know the thoughts get fewer and fewer as time passes.

If you want help quitting I suggest heading over to Quitnet or you can always contact me and I can give you some encouragement or maybe point you in the right direction.